The Fall of A Banyan Tree....
“Where
is Dad?” I asked my mom as I walked slowly towards her.
“He
has gone along with Daadu and Daadi (Grand Ma) to their place from Hospital.”
She said hastily while she took me to washroom and splashed some water on my
face from the bucket.
She
cleaned my face quickly, changed my clothes, combed my hairs and again got
herself busy in packing the stuff she was packing earlier.
Things
had not been in their usual manner since last one week. Since the day I had
been told by mom that Daadu was not well and he had to stay at doctor’s place
called Hospital till he gets well again. My Chachu, who was not married yet and
lived with Daadu and Daadi at our village, was coming to pick me up from school
since that day. My neighbor’s daughter who was in our school till last year and
whom I didn’t like that much, was taking care of me and my homework . Her
mother coming in between was making things further worse for me. Dad wasn’t
coming home regularly too and I was told that he is taking care of Daadu at
hospital along with Daadi.
I
was still trying to collect things in my mind in that chilled early morning
when my mom handed me a glass full of milk and I heard the car approaching our
home. I never liked drinking milk but gulped the full glass down my throat in
one go showing the first sign of maturity as mom ran towards the door. Chachu
came in as mom opened the door and returned to me. He picked up the stuff mom
was busy packing and we all came out. Mom locked the door while Chachu took the
driver’s seat. I had always been obstinate for sitting in front since dad had
brought our own Maruti home last year, but I don’t know why I behaved different
again. But Mom took me in her lap and sat in front. I looked towards my home
while Chachu took the U turn. He wasn’t his usual self too. He was always like
loving, teasing and playing with me. But
this time he hadn’t even pulled my cheeks which he loved most and I hated most.
“How
is papa now? And why you have got him
discharged from the hospital? He was recovering when I saw him last night,
wasn’t he?” Mom said anxiously to Chachu breaking my thought process.
“Yes
he was slightly, from the night before yesterday. But his condition started
deteriorating again after about an hour you had left. In midnight nurse called
the doctor and he gave him an injection again and said there is no hope.”
Chachu said holding his tears. “He slept till three O’clock and then started
asking us to take him back in Village. We tried a lot to make dad relax but he
wasn’t ready to spend a minute more there. Bhaiyya (Brother) consulted with the
doctor and nurse helped in making the discharge as soon as possible”. Chachu
said wiping his wet eyes.
“Your
bhaiyya called around 3.30 and just said they were leaving for the village and
you would be coming to pick us up in an hour. I was so frightened since then.”
Mom said and she was in tears too.
I
was scared as I have never seen any of them in tears before. I didn’t know what
exactly was happening but was quiet sure by now that something was wrong with
Daadu.
No
one spoke after that and I slowly turned my gaze away from mom and chachu
towards the trees running behind, few stars to observe in the sky and moon
hiding and coming out of the clouds.
Our village wasn’t that far from the city. It
was on the road to Derabassi from Chandigarh. It has been just two years since
we had shifted in the city. All I knew was that dad will now teach in a very
big college called University rather than in the school. But I didn’t like it
that much as now students kept coming in big bunches in home too till the
dinner. And that had started keeping dad busy. However every alternative
weekend we were going to meet Daadu and Daadi and I used to wait for those
weekends more than anything else.
Soon
we turned towards the smaller way in between the fields leading towards our
village and began my horror show as well. I never liked this phase of my Car’s
journey as there were so many Ghosts always standing in between the fields
staring me, which I came to know were scarecrows and were meant to scare crows
not me, only an year or two later when I had been taught about it in school. I
hid myself in mom’s arms and didn’t turn my face out again till we got a big
jump, always holding a deep strength to welcome us right outside our village.
It
wasn’t empty like city was at that time in the morning. People were on the
streets wrapped up completely in shawls and chewing sticks I had seen in Daadi’s
room near the window ledge and mom once had told me they are for cleaning
teeth. I wondered how one can clean his teeth with a wooden stick. Infact I had
tried once but couldn’t find the answer. As we moved towards our home the
number of people kept increasing on the street and there were a number of
people gathered and more coming outside our home. Chachu parked the Car outside
near the big Banyan tree standing strong in front of our home. It was a very
big Banyan tree, even bigger than the one was in our book last year. It hosted
a lot of birds of different types to rest and live, squirrels to jump here and
there, kids to play and Grand pa and his friends to hold their evening
meetings.
People
gave us the way as we hurried inside the home. There were more people inside.
Although there were always people coming in our home and sitting for hours but
today almost whole village was at our doorsteps. Our home in village was
amongst a few bigger ones. It had a very big open space made of red bricks. In
the middle of it, there was a very big plant around which we used to pray in
morning, And a big verandah in front of it with six rooms around it, three on
both the sides with a lobby in middle leading to back of the home. At back of
the home we had equally bigger area with cows tying on one side and vegetables
grown on the other.
There
were familiar faces in verandah. We headed straightaway towards Daadu’sroom.
Room was filled with Daadu’s and Daadi’s friends. Then I saw Dad sitting on the
floor and Daadu lying on his lap. Dad was holding Daadu’s hand in his hand. I
was still holding Mom’s finger. Mom went to Daadi and I went along with her
holding her finger. Daadi was in sobs and others were too. I was scared.
“Why
Daadu is lying on the ground mom?” I asked turning my mom’s face towards me,
who was now inclined to Daadi. Before
she could reply me, I heard my name Arav and Daadi gave a slight pat on my
shoulder and signaled me to go to Daadu. I saw him spreading his arms like he
always had for me. I went to him and he put his arms around me. I was lying
over him but this time his grip wasn’t that strong it used to be. Then he
kissed me on my forehead and turned his face towards dad. He tried to say
something, but his words weren’t coming out properly.
“Hasn’t
..Kishore…and Sunny….came yet?” He asked.
Sunny
was my cousin brother. He lived in delhi with Badi Ma (Aunt) and Bade Pa
(Uncle).
“I
have already given a trunk call to veer jee and they will be here soon” dad
said trying to make Grand Pa calm.
“Rano……..and
Laddi” He asked about my chhoti Bua and badi Bua (Aunt).
“They
are coming too” dad answered while running his hand on Daadu’s forehead.
“I…..want
to….see you….all…..to..uh gether.” Daadu said trying to stretch his tongue.
“This….ye..ar.
We wil get….Arun….married too.” Daadu said looking towards Chachu, who was
holding Daadu’s feet in his lap and was rubbing them with his hands.
“Arav…..Arav…..Arav’s
this year Birthday…I…I….will get him……Bicycle.” Daadu said and his hug became a
bit tighter. I hugged him tightly too. After a few seconds his hold of me
became loser and further loser. I
compensated it by my further tight hug. All ladies in that room who were sobbing
earlier started howling loudly now. Dad and chachu was weeping too. Mom was
holding Daadi and was weeping loudly. Somebody from so many people standing out
there took me in his arms and came out of that room. By that time I had started
crying too. I was trying my level best to get lose of that hold and go back to Daadu.
All of sudden I started shouting loudly, “Let me go to Daadu. Let me go to
Daadu”. I started slapping the person and he hugged me tightly. I realized he
was my Mamu (Uncle)who loved me so much. “I want to go to Daadu. Let me go. Let
me go mamu” I said crying loudly but bit unruffled this time. After few minutes
my cries turned into sobs while mamu held me tight in his arms. Meanwhile they
kept doing something with clothes and some other stuff in the room where Daadu
was lying. People kept coming and howls grew further louder and louder. After
an hour or so bua jee came and bade Pa came few hours later. A barber came and
made all of males in the family bald including me. Meanwhile tears has stopped
coming out of my eyes but it was like I was ingesting them down my throat now.
People
brought a kind of wooden structure and placed it in the open area in front of
verandah and covered with white sheets. Then they laid Daadu there. Daadu was fully
covered with white sheet now. They performed some rituals, and then covered him
with flowers. I kept watching standing numb. I don’t know what I was feeling at
that moment but I was sure about one thing that something is going to be
changed forever.
Then
suddenly dad, chachu along with two other uncles picked Daadu up on their
shoulders along with that wooden frame on which he was lying for his journey to
live with God now. They walked out of the home and all others followed. Bade Pa
was walking ahead holding a pot and Sunny bhaiyya was waving a hand-made fan
like object to Daadu. All were chanting god’s name. Mamoo was holding my hand.
Mom had held Daadi tightly and was howling loudly along with bua jee and badi
ma while I look behind walking out of the home with all others. Almost whole
village was following us when we turned left of the Banyan tree outside our
home in the village square. Usual life
around that banyan tree was missing today. Those squirrels, ever chirping birds
and kids around were too following us perhaps. Walking through fields for half
an hour we reached on the banks of nearby river. All who had came along with us
carried wooden sticks or slats and made a pyre of those woods. They laid Daadu
on the pyre and covered him with more woods after performing some rituals. Then
we walked in circular path around that pyre. Then bade Pa fired the pyre and we
all stood there for some time. Bade pa
and Dad stood in line hands pressed together while all others walked back to village. I stood there along with Chachu
and Sunny bhaiyya watching fire flames reaching higher and higher in sky.
Now
after so many years, I realize what I had watched for so long that day, which hadn’t
known to me when I was actually there watching that fire burning it all. It was
like that the big banyan tree has been set fired and it will engulf everything
to burn down in ashes. It will burn my playmate, my playgame and my playground
itself. It will burn my stories and my storyteller. It will burn my guard and
my shelter. It will burn the single Authority of our home whom everyone else
had followed without an argument. It will burn that Big banyan tree standing
strong in middle of the village right outside our home with a full authority of
command, giving shelter to all, guarding them all, giving grounds to all to
grow, giving plots for stories to develop, giving a place for all to discuss
what they were going through in their lives, making everyone learn from its
experience of being large and solid, letting all kids fly like birds, play
like, squirrels, run like lizards under its vast network of trunks, roots and
branches and making all feel like that having Big banyan tree around us they
are protected under shadows of its blessings.
For
so many days after that day I kept a hope of him coming back like Amitabh
Bachhan used to come back live again in every Friday movie after getting killed
in previous one. Going to village now was never that excited as life was never
same again. Daadu’s last words kept echoing in my ears for so many days that he
will get me a bicycle on my next birthday and I still have that Bicycle dad got
me same year. It makes me feel like he is still around taking care of me. That
loneliness was later filled with competitive race of life.
That
Banyan tree in front of our home in village is still there offering its
unconditional love in all forms. But I can always just close my eyes and watch
a li’l kid witnessing The Fall of A Banyan Tree.